Ryan vs. Annie

Honestly, Ryan? Do you honestly want to know what I'm being so ridiculous?

Because ever since I met you, I wanted to be with you. And ever since I dumped you to see if you'd chase after me - and you didn't - my life has been horrible. In those four years, I have pined for you. I want to marry you, Ryan. And after I marry you, I want to have your kids - preferably 3. Not more than 4, but definitely 2 at least. I want the kids screaming, the lunch packing, rushing off to work, the kids' practices, and those 10 minutes to ourselves before the kids wake up. I don't want the minivan, but I'd be willing to negotiate.

But the only thing in this life that can make me happy is you.I want the sensitive, witty, sarcastic guy that wears his emotions on his entire shirt, not just the sleeve. But you don't want me! Do you really have to wonder why I'm being ridiculous? I want all the things in you that are completely reprehensible TO you. You don't want kids, you don't want marriage. You want monogomy, but with no strings. You want the apartment down the hall. You want what your buddy ordered. I can't compete with that. Even if you wanted me, the kids, the ring, the minivan - you'd never be happy with it and it would make me miserable. More miserable than I am now.

So what do I do? I can't get over you - you're the one. You're the only one I've wanted, the only one I will ever want. And I'm your leftovers from 4 years ago. You never had the desire to pick up the phone and say 'I want you back'.